I know what you’re going through. I know how hard it is to keep working and trying and to not get anywhere. You have to believe that someone understands. Because if no one understood then what’s the point in trying to talk about it? But you do have to talk about it.
I have experienced many hardships in my 23 years of existence. People I thought I could trust have harmed me. Others who I believed would help me have let me down almost every time. But there are a select few loved ones in my life who understand – who talk to me about it – and who do help me more than they know.
You think it’d be easier to forget about it all. You think it wouldn’t be so bad to go through life hardening your heart at every turn. But that’s not how this works. You need to let go.
Let go of pain and anger. Let go of grudges you’ve been holding with people who didn’t even know they had done something wrong. I know you do this – I did it too. Let go of worries that can’t be validated. Let go of toxic people you’ve been keeping around to make it easier to come up with excuses for being so closed-off. Let go of doubt that you can’t do something.
Once you make a promise to yourself – keep it. The worst promises are ones that we break for no reason at all. You want to lose weight for health reasons? That’s a pretty darn great reason. You want to start a business? Great, do it. You want to build your relationship with your family? Perfect, that’s always a good idea. But once you start these things, you have to remember that it’s not okay to give up. These are all great reasons to do wonderful things. They will change your life. Why would you want to give that up?
You don’t want to give that up. You’re just still holding onto those self-sabotaging habits from your past. The worst thing you can do for yourself is nothing. Get up. Get going. And get yourself on track.